Hey lovies. It's new years eve! Only a few hours left until 2011. How's everyone spending theirs? Every year I think of the line from the O'Jays song...
"New years just ain't New Years....Without the one you love"..
Unfortunately, that's just a dream to me. Maybe one day...I've spent too many of them (aside from when I went to church service) alone (most times stood up smh)... However.. no complaining..I still do my nails hair and toes...get a new outfit..like Im going somewhere or being with someone every year and always end up sitting looking at tv (same thing i did this year). Thinking about going to a bar...but I don't think me going out alone on NYE is the best move. #shrugs. Either way...I made it to see a new year...I have something to smile about...
Welp...I just wanted to wish all of my lovies a happy new year in advance! Be safe
:-)
I'll keep dreaming...
Disclaimer:...The chosen picture has NOTHING to do with the ppl in it and in NO WAY their relationship...I just simply like the art..#Shrugs
Man.. I hate to hear news like this (death about anyone always sends chills through my heart). The bearer of bad news, my brother ( lol jk), decided to catch me when i woke up in the middle of night EARLY monday morn. to tell me that Teena Marie died. I was shocked. It didn't really hit me until i woke up the next day and heard all her songs repeating on the radio. Which is odd.. because over the past few months.. i've been blaring her greatest hits cd like it was the hottest on the streets. Now i can't touch it :-/ (Death does that to me until i can digest the whole thing). However... i did want to pay respects to a great music legend on here. Teena.. you will be missed.
I normally post this on wednesdays.. but under certain circumstances... I had to do it today. No biggie .. the message is still the same.
Perfect song for my ladies. The new year is shortly approaching (NYE is tomorrow)...and i want usallto go into it with the right mind frame. No foolishness... and not only that.. Handle yourself. All this mess you walkin around carrying... it won't bring you happiness... it won't bring you love.... it won't do ANYTHING but bring you down mentally physically and emotionally. Let it go (whatever the worry is)... Set yourself free ..
"Ain't no feeling like being free...when your mind's made up.. and your heart is in the right place..."- Destiny's Child
The lyrics of this song (every single word) alone should empower you today ladies. And if you're sad... cheer up sweetie... you've got something to smile about.
Remember you all are beautiful. xoxo.
I guess nobody ever told you...all you must hold on to... is you... One day.. all them bags.. gone get in your way...
Went to the Wiz Khalifa concert at Rams Head (Baltimore) on Tuesday...I love dude even more now.
If i go solely off the music (his openings acts and DEFINITELY his performance)... the cloudy aroma... drinks... and we looked damn good. lls... It was a Good night man..
I won't speak on the other shit from that night.... -___- #StraightFuckeryandFoolery
Wiz homie Will was present of course. Man oh man... i gotta keep that to myself. Naysh got to caress wiz on the low lol... It goes in the books haha
Hey ppl... I've been gone for a minute... but i'm BACCKKKK :-) Now i can proceed with the posting lol.....
These past three days... Boy oh boy... people have been TRYING me... I won't refer to them as ppl tho... I know it's Satan trying to work through them. Too bad for his/their sake I know the Lord tho... Satan will NEVER win w. him on my side. But man oh man.. has he been trying and trying to get me out of my element. I won't lose focus. I promise. God got me.
Now that i've got that off my chest :-) ....
I saw the link for the monster video this morning )... it's all me right there. I love the resident evil feel. Ppl will look at it as demonic bc they're narrow minded yea i said it . They won't even see the actual meaning. Quite comical and irritating at the same time. Anywho... i LOVE the outcome of this... (the video concept) 'Ye always pulls through w/ the vids
My favorite Christmas Song... I had it on repeat last year on the eve and drank two bottles of moscato...imagine how i felt when i woke up....yikers It always fits with my mood around this time....
I chose this song simply because I felt like it -_- lol. No I'm just kidding. Seriously though.. Although, Fox was raunchy, she wasn't like that always... and made some hardcore no porn for the ladies. Basically... you can hold your own like a man. She hung out with the boys and still kept her femininity and stood out from the crowd.
My personal message for the day that has nothing to do with the video :Ladies, Don't feel worthless and don't feel you have to dumb down your appearance of being fly just cause ppl hatin on you. You looking good and keep yourself up... men love that.. and most women who don't keep themselves up are jealous of it. Pay them no mind. Pamper yourself...Handle your business...Get your money mami.
Also, drop all that loose baggage (that includes everyone of both sexes)... "I can't rock w/ you no more... How can i love you?... I can't even trust you".. That line alone can apply to a homegirl.. a co worker... a significant other. Don't let the love word in there throw you off... Not rockin w/ someone and not trusting them can apply to everyone..#Hello!What you bringin to the table shorty??
**Sigh...I love this song... AND the video...
S/O to my fam Kim.. Happy Birthday...and thanks for being hip when I was younger...enabled me to sneak in your room and listen to music (specifically the ILL NA NA album) like this while you weren't home lmao. Enjoy your day hunny
"Ain't like a chick ain't ballin' herself..and Can you give me more, then I'm holding myself??"- Fox
“Fall is a marked reminder that summer has ended and is the gateway to “Holiday Blues”, which is related to psychosocial factors such as financial position, increased family responsibilities, loneliness, decreased activity, expectations that one “should” feel and do good, and possible unresolved conflicts with family and relationships…
A more serious depressive disorder seen in some who suffer the “Holiday Blues” is called Seasonal Affective Disorder, or simply put SAD which is bought on by a lack of sunlight, and causes depression as the days get shorter, colder and oddly enough marked with more routine. SAD is estimated to affect 36 million Americans, which is about 5% of the population and 80% of the affected population is women, mostly in their 20’s to 40’s “- Yolanda Adams
Oh how I wish I was hip to this article sooner. I am always depressed around the holidays starting with Thanksgiving (for reasons I will not disclose). I just wait for them to be over. Even New Years isn’t a good time for me (as much as I like that holiday). When the week of Thanksgiving hits… I just mark the days until all three is over. However… this article makes some pretty valid points. Especially the 10 tips below. They don’t apply to just Christmas… they can apply for new years too or any holiday you prefer.....had much to say and immediately hit a writer’s block…:-/ …. …
10 Tips to fighting the Holiday Blues
1.DISPOSE GARBAGE- Simple remove and eliminate ALL toxicity. That includes toxic friends, relationships and situations. If it’s truly not your problem or you can’t do anything to fix someone else’s problem then let go of the worry and aggravation.
2. SELF- PRESERVE- You can do little for anyone if you don’t take care of self. Remember taking care of self is different from selfishness! Stress over nothing that doesn’t involve life or death. Schedule your mental and physical exam, exercise often and eat a balanced diet. Also, charity starts at home. Therefore, for every dollar you spend on someone else, save two for the preservation of our future. If you can’t save two dollars then you don’t have one dollar for gifts. It’s time to re-gift, create and offer blessing. Those who love you will understand.
3. SOCIALIZE- Alienation is “holiday blues” best friend. Don’t make it your friend. Get out and Enjoy Life. Spend Time with people you enjoy and doing things you normally don’t do.
It seems whenever things start to look up a little... here comes the foolishness -_-. If you're feeling a little down today or about anything in general... This one is for you...and me
You just keep your faith in me... Don't act impatiently... You'll get where you need to be... In Due Time... Even when things are slow... Hold on and don't let go... I'll give you what I owe... In due time.......
You've got to realize that the world's a test...
You can only do your best and let him do the rest....
I was trying to wait until Christmas to post this... but i couldn't help it. Heard it the other day... and had it on repeat. Dope. The closest thing I'll get to the holiday spirit... #shrugs.
"Come give a kiss to Santa Claus"....
Christmas In Harlem- Kanye West, Chyi the Prince, Teyana Taylor
As if i don't have enough on my plate... I'd given my all at something and was slapped with extreme humility this morning/afternoon. I applaud you... you succeeded at tearing apart my character.
Now I know everyone (people who actually know me) have this conception that I have an idgaf attitude.. as my co-workers say "HardBody".... but what people need to realize is that it is I who am human too... and whether I display them or not as much as i would like... i DO indeed have feelings... and things can hurt me as well.
Side commentary: Looks like I'll be sticking with my "Women's Empowerment" post for today to constantly remind myself to Dry my eyes and Keep my head up #SubAndPunIntended....
This hit home ridiculously today more than anyone could imagine... for one particular reason.If you're going through anything right now ladies... remember what i remind you of every Wednesday... You areBEAUTIFULand needed. You're special. Hold your head up high. Walk with dignity. I know it's hard... but we were built to endure the worst pains (Love, Cramps, and Childbirth) and yet and still remain strong enough to mask it all and continue with our day. So don't be discouraged.... You are one of a kind my dears.... Beautiful Creations :)
I hope the excerpts from the song encourage you as they did for me(grabs kleenex)
But please don't cry, dry your eyes, never let up...
Forgive but don't forget, girl keep your head up...
And when he tells you you ain't nothin, don't believe him...
And if he can't learn to love you, you should leave him... Cause sista you don't need him... And I ain't tryin to gas ya up, I just call em how I see em...
I think it's time to kill for our women...Time to heal our women, be real to our women...And since a man can't make one... He has no right to tell a woman when and where to create one... So will the real men get up...I KNOW YOU'RE FED UP LADIES, BUT KEEP YOUR HEAD UP...
Clearly.. I'm rockin in my establishment today... This just happened to pop up on my Mobb Deep playlist for some strange reason o_O so I decided to post.
CashRules Everything Around Me ....
I had to come back and edit this post CLEARLY for this song. This use to be my get dressed in the morning for school song in 9th grade LOL. My ish man...
I'm just a soul who's intentions are good... oh Lord.. please don't let me be mis-understood...
Starting to think in addition to my prayers and fellowship at the church... I need some Holy Water.... *looks to left.. then right... Lord please help your child..You know the drill... this happens at least 3-4 times a year :-/ The intensity this time is crucial :-/ #Help
Everyone just lies about the dumbest shit. Completely irrelevant shit. Smh. I am so disgusted. Like do you really think for one second the truth doesn’t come out? (if it already hasn't). Smh. Your whole cover could be blown.. but messing with a person like I... you'll never know at least not immediately #shrugs . I don’t have any positive male figure in my life right now… whether that be relative or non-relative and it's REALLY bothering me. No one to look to except Hov & President Obama for hope of "hey that's a good man". The only I can speak for is my cousin Rashard. Otherwise… I have NOTHING good to say about the male specie. Nothing.
You can keep your 15% efforts that you give and want a pat on the back. Sorry.. it doesn’t cut it. And I won’t be biting my tongue anymore. I have let things slide as if they were “unnoticed” or “unknown” when in all actuality it’s the opposite.. I just don’t say anything. I figure it’s not worth the headache. What to hear another lie? No I’ll pass. I’m not ashamed to say (as I was discussing this with a friend of mine) that the reason why I deal with “not worthy” males (for lack of better words) is because that’s what I know (hence the men in my immediate family). Yea they apart of that 15% efforts too. Hey, they are my family and I love them… but shit it’s the truth (with the exception of you Rashard if you are reading lol).
I just don’t want to hold it in anymore.. for what??… to drive my thoughts and feelings crazy as it has been doing? It’s really kind of a lose lose situation. Say something and hear another lie= Frustrated. Don’t say anything and be upset about it= STILL frustrated. Shit either way.. I’m not going to win… so what’s the point of compromising..what do I have to lose lol?
It is really disturbing me how ppl don’t have any morals nowadays and no respect for ppl who deserve it. Like really… why treat all the ppl who care about you and have been there in your life like crap… but the ppl who don’t do shit get the praise and care. responding to me when you feel like it... but jumping up when NOBODIES hit you.... stuntin for Facebook like you got your shit together lmao such a joke..you lucky I don't expose your ass... #ShotsThrown at one particular relative and the "non-relative"... Smh. Non-appreciative muthafuckas.
So when I said on that disgusting filthbook, which brought me to my breaking point to post this…, that “Love is a JOKE”… I didn’t mean that just relationship wise.. I meant ALL of them… relationships with significant others ..JOKE… relationships with certain family members ..JOKE… co-workers (although that one is male and female)…JOKE lol. I can go on and on. I am just really disgusted with ppl nowadays.
I am starting to feel more and more aversion for ppl’s ways. “Loser-ship” is at an ALL time high right now… Everyone is on the bitchassness and wants to display their Loser-ship card to it. What’s a gal like me to do?
Conclusion: I will continue to hope and pray for the better. I know he won’t let me down. Therefore.. .. I’ll keep it in stride and keep my head held high…
In the meantime…
for you all that THINK you are or have gotten over on me… I have a few tricks up my sleeve as well. Let’s play a game…
I promise you… I WON’T LOSE …
#shrug
"When will they ever learn... keep playing w/ that fire.. that ass'll get burned..."
side commentary : If any of my male counterparts don't matter who... got offended by this for any reason and felt like i was talking to them... trust.. i was talkin about yo' triflin ass too. Got a problem with it? GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER! And for those.. if you have ANYTHING negative to say...please be advised... #thatisall
This week.. I've decided to have two songs for today...
To commemorate my grandmother's anniversary on this day (rip)and the unbelievable things I have going on in my life physically, mentally, and emotionally... I still have to be a "big girl" ..put on the happy facade in the office..andACT like everything is ok....
"I can't see it coming down my eyes.... so I gotta make the song cry" :'''''''''''''''''''''''''( hurting
On a brighter note, however, this song brings joy to me. It brings back memories... of friday nights in the city at my Aunt gloria's house....listening to her and mom talk about the latest happenings while i prance around in awe lol. Up until today... where I still hear the song.. where now... it is I.. who has the glass of wine in hand on Friday nights... Deniece blaring... prancing around feeling like I'm on the clouds. This song takes me there... For a few minutes.... not a care in the world...#feelgoodmusic.
this is the absolute worst. i cant wait for this year to be over.today has been the worst day of my life and what hurts more is that you dont care and no one's there. it was never the other way around. the pain i am feeling mentally emotionally and physically UNDESCRIBABLE... :'(
Wiz has been all over the tube today. He did a stellar performance on 106 & Wack today although they played him w/ the 2min. interview -_- . Hopefully I'll find that video some time this weekend. However... Earlier today..he was on Power105.1 w/ the Breakfast Club. Peep the video below.
Damn he looks good ...Censored Thoughts
"@RealWizKhalifa - so u guys liked tha performance, my outfit, my fro, and tha fact that i wuz visibly stoned. nice job taylors"
You showed your emotions.... Just the previous night.... Now how could I be witnessing.... Such a sight to see tonight....
These three words began to leave.... GO TO HELL BABY....
Time sat very close to me.... And it helped me unwind.... A day or two to release.... I kept my composure... With the evidence that might.... Have kept me from holding my piece.... and putting up a fight....
I VOIDED YOUR EXCUSE.... YOU CAN SAVE YOUR SONG AND DANCE...
"There's no hiding place... When you're hurting...."- Angie Stone
Hey Gals & Guys. I apologize to the readers that I have been missing for a while from posting. As you can see… even my Hov Birthday post wasn’t eccentrically done :( as only I would do for him (but trust the post will be edited and fitted for a king as he is lol) . It’s something going on you guys wouldn’t BELIEVE and only 5 ppl know. These are not people I am necessarily close close with… but somehow someway they happened to be around during this… of course when all the ppl I’m “close close” with .. weren’t and nowhere to be found the usual .
Anyway… fuck all that shit… *straightens up collar and buttons up blazer..
I just wanted to apologize to the readers. I missed Motivation Mondays because I could not for the life of me think of a motivational song I wanted to post (you can tell the mood I was in lol).. and I even missed Women’s Empowerment Wednesdays which is a really huge thing for me. Smh @ myself . I really hate that sometimes I become so unenthused due to certain situations in my life... that it takes away joy from things I would normally do. Needless to say… I hope all of you all are doing well on your behalf and enjoying the holidays. I appreciate you taking time out to view and read my blog..… especially when you leave comments or send me twits showing love. I definitely appreciate it.. More than you will ever know.
I’ve been on my early 90s ish today and Faith has been boomin. Just so happens this version of“You Used to Love Me”randomnly came on. I’ve NEVER heard it before :-/…but I Like!!! A different kind of vibe from the original.
My Favorite Faith Look (the bleach blonde) circa 94/95 (Oh how i miss the 90's ..sigh)
Another Faith look/song I love. I think she looked FLAWLESS in this video. Love it.
To someone… who shall remain nameless…I LOVE YOU.. (every single lyric) Side commentary: Funny I can feel that way…but my emotions are the complete OPPOSITE right now :-/
I hear constantly thatCurren$yshould’ve stayed with Young Money...blah blah blah... and he would be so-called “hot” right now. Truth be told...ahem...Curren$y IS HOT.. and HOTTER than he was, in my opinion, when he was signed to Cash Money. His whole approach to music is different...and iLOVE the “jet life” loli know you all remember the post of me waiting hours to see him do a 15min set at luxlol that’s a true fan lls. Although,Pilot Talk 1and2may not have been commercially a success.... to true lovers of music.. they were noticed... & rotated ...
Side Commentary: HEAVILY in my car...witnesses... and a product of that was my lil cousin knowing all the words to “Breakfast” this summer. I was proud lol
... not to mention the appreciation for Curren$y’s new style and trend setting. It was something different and unique... with SUBSTANCE.. I thought to myself.. I like this Curren$y better... it seems he went ahead and did what he wanted to do.. without having the influence of others. He did his THING onbothalbums...CREATIVELY and LYRICALLY.
Yet and still...
some can’t give credit where credit is due. Just because Young Money is “hot” right now does NOT mean in any way that he would not be in the same situation he was in (put on the backburner). Look how many artists they have on their camp who actually get “Notable” recognition... Scratch out Nicki (who by the way had been around for years before her album dropped) & Wayne..aside from them who you got?...mmhmm I’ll wait. Gudda Gudda had a great single “I don’t like the look of it” and a nice lil flow.. although they had to change the instrumental due to the sample not being cleared.. it was still HOT.. yet and still .. no “notable” recogniton... BACK BURNER. Curren$ydecided to speak on the topic of him doing what he does with his music and not changing for ANYONE throwing in their opinions...
"The fact that everybody gives me so much flak for not conforming lets me know that there's a need for this, It's a break from the norm, like, 'Well, I'm gonna keep on doing this. I should give them two before it's done.' Everybody's like, 'Ah, if he would just do a song for the radio.'"I'm trying to show that there's a way to survive without playing that game, without conforming," he continued. "So the fact that I could put three albums out not conforming shows people like, 'Dude, if you think you're right, you're probably right.' Just stick to your guns and eventually it'll all line up ... I am just a living mission statement; I have to do it."-Curren$y
Now in the words of Hov... “If you can’t respect that.. your whole perspective is wack...”.. Umm huh... yea...#JETSfool One of my favs from Pilot Talk 2.... Just press play.. It should be obvious why...
I had a song in mind for today...but I decided to use this one in LEU ofWORLD AIDS DAY.
I be like my generations complaining about things we don't have, but if you think about it we ain't got it so bad- Travis McCoy
This is a serious disease my sisters...and why it may not affect some of us personally...trust..it affects us ALL. Anyone who knows me...know I RARELY promote Tyler Perry movies personal reasons ...but if you haven't seen "For Colored Girls".. Please go out and do so. I promise in one way or another...you can relate...YOU'RE NOT ALONE MY SISTERS. YOU'RE NOT ALONE. Keep your head up darlings....Remember...YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.
Not just because of today, but if you haven't already...GET TESTED...
"So let's make history....and help out those in need..."
My motivation today was on 0 % :( Physically & Mentally DRAINED.
Didn't help it was chaos in the office today as well.
Luckily, I came across this tweet that caught my eye...
rt @thepriceiswrite RT @haroldherring: The manifestation of God’s purpose is sometimes hindered by the plans we make for ourselves If I would just stop worrying about handling things on my own when everything goes wrong, andconstantly remind myself that God is in control (not only when things are good, but when they are bad too), I probably can stop hindering myself from potential blessings. Just thought i should share with you all.
Food for thought (*hov voice... Let me get you a plate.)
This video was on a previous post... However... the feeling and the message is still the same.....
Disclaimer: I began to draft this on Tuesday. But i didn't finish the post until Wednesday. I guess because Tuesday was the day i started, it posted the day the draft was originated and not the actual day it was posted. #shrugs. You get the gist tho
I decided to take a different approach today....
Normally, I have a song obviously by a woman, with girl power and all of that. But..... I really needed a quick picker upper and this popped into my mind. Love this song... LL's Jam about me lol Whether we want to admit it or not,it feels good to be complimented and noticed by a man... especially one that you have feelings for or don't mind that they arelooking at you. You can pull the whole"i do this for me" shitwhich may be true to an extent, but all it takes is for onefinebrother in the office to say "I see you.... you do your thang everyday... always fly...".. I bet you'll NEVER come to work again (if you have done before) with an average outfit on lls. You'll always make it your point to make sure you are looking good because you know.... that man is looking. You can have a great self-esteem and know you're worth, that's ALL GREAT :).... but We all like to be noticed and receive attention... especially from the ones that we love. Whether it's "baby i love it when you wear that perfume" (you'll wear it all the time when you all go out lls) or something as simple as "I like what you did with your hair..." That makes us feel good. To know at least you're paying attention. At least... we are noticed.
Now, in the "Around the Way girl" case... I picked this song because I hear so many dudes nowadays say they don't like girls who wear extensions or weaves which REALLY bothers me when they say that ... (now unless it looks a HOT ASS MESS ).. why not embrace your girl??.. like "babe you look good! and if that's what makes you feel comfortable.. shit i'm cool with it". You think women just put it in because that's what they wake up and feel like doing o_O. No.. obviously... they are going for a certain look.. maybe a look they love. In a world today... where guys look at all the Beyonce's and Kim Kardashians... it's tough to not fall into the trap of "i need to look like her... maybe they'll (he'll) notice me".
We really go the extra mile sometimes to make sure we look good for our man... and it would make us feel 10x better and appreciated if they complimented us every once in a while. (Not just looks) Whether it’s the way we talk or the way we handle our business, just knowing that you noticed and you like it... makes us feel more esteemed....
Case and Point…LL let's us know... ‘girl i see you’.. and shows admiration. Yea, you can go to your 9 to 5, handle your business, and still be able to talk with ya “street slang”…. Wear your weave pieces… Bamboo earrings… knock off louis’ (if you can’t afford the real ones)… and still be BEAUTIFUL. LL notices… and trust me it’s some other brothers out there who do too…..
Don’t get discouraged…. YOU’RE ONE OF A KIND… and one day…someone special will make sure… you KNOW that :)
"I want a girl with extensions in her hair.... bamboo earrings ... at least two pair"
The dance moves are classic lls
Side commentary: Let me make this disclaimer for my lesbian community. Shoot this doesn't have to just apply to heterosexuals.... it's the same with your girlfriend. She needs to embrace you too. Feeling appreciated by "your attraction" ALWAYS makes you feel a little more esteemed... no matter the preference....
Now I've done all the promotion for these items...and they're finally Here... :-)
You won't believe the mission impossible stunt I pulled to get these from Best Buy when they opened..... and i won't disclose the info either hahaha need my J.O.B.
As you can see.... The mission was complete :) Hov's Greatest Hits (Collector's Edition), Ye's My Beautiful Twisted Dark Fantasy, and Nicki's Pink Friday....
Now... I sent my brother the picture to let him know my accomplishment this morning lls and look at the photo he sent back. lol
S/O to the homie Lloyd Banks.... His CD , Hunger for More 2, dropped today as well.
You see...... Hip Hop runs in the family..... #SupportYourFavoriteArtists
Side Commentary: Bet you all didn't know that was actually JUST BLAZE on the intro ("....my fellow americans") and on the 2nd intro before the 2nd verse (that I say sounds like Whitney Houston lls).... He just had something on the boards that made it sound distorted and vintage. #DOPE. Read Hov's book "Decoded"...you could learn a thing...or two.....
;) My raven wanted to know why I sent "plus if they was short w/ cheese...I would work with them" earlier.... Does it make sense now???.... I was listening to Hov greatest hits...it just happened to fit the situation haha See...Redskin can be nice *bats lashes
Final Note: Now that I listen to that part just at this very moment... I realized... the 2nd intro DEFINITELY sounds Like Alpo (Shorty they based Paid in Full the movie off of)...If you don't know him...look it up. Damn I never noticed that till today...
In case you missin Wizzy like i am (tried to get the tickets WEEKS ago and they were sold out :( ).... He obviously Loves me lol because he is Streaming the show live.. since I couldn't be there tunein.....He is rockin that shit...
